Blessingsndreams

Do we struggle through life?

Why do we struggle?

Why does it happens to me?

Why does God allows this in my life?

How can I stop struggling?

Why me?

All these questions are valid to ask. All are profoundly felt deep inside of us at any given time. Sometimes more often than we would preffer. As Frederick Douglas quoted -"Whithout a struggle, there can be no progress"

The Bible pretty much say the same thing. We cannot grow and develop character without struggles and hard circumstances. I am finding myself like I am tired of all the struggles but then again, I have to embrace them because they are what will make me strong. Not of my own strength but allowing the strength of Christ who is now in me. I have to break it to you, I am not a righteous one, I am only seen that way by God and that makes me feel good. But it still does worries me that I cannot spend just 24 hours and be in good standing, by the law of God, perfect at least that little of time. That it is a struggle, my friend.

But many struggles come to us all the time. I have struggled with a very deep wound for the past 3 years. Things continue to get complicated even if there is a little light by the tunnel, something or someone closes it shut again or makes it even darker.

 

After 3 years of not hearing from daugther after she bluntly told me not to contact her ever, she texted me. I pretty much wanted to pass out,lol but I held it together. She obviously was trying to see how much she can reel me in. I stayed put. She apologized and wished me a good day. I am ok with that. I might have loss the opportunity of being with her one more time, meet my grand-daughter, hug her once more... But at the same time I might have also missed the opportunity to hurt, be reminded of the wounds inflicted,betrayed one more time, who knows. So far, God has kept me firm and even if I missed any of the good things, I am sure that if her desire is to reconcile, she will contact me again. If not, I am still on the wonderful side of God.