Blessingsndreams

DESOLATION

Sometimes when you retrieve yourself for a period of time, it can be labeled as a desolation time. It can be so many things at once that maybe the word desolation might not be the most appropiate one. That is the beauty of being human.

I, for example, have desolated myself for a big while. That is one of the major reasons I have not been around any of the sites of the internet. I have checked my emails because they come straight to my phone and it is only very rarely that I do because in my new workplace, my cell is on complete silence, like off most of the day. I get home and I silence it again because I have to deal with my inner person as well as with other situations I have at home.

I cannot say that I am better off completely away from so many people I know and that I dearly love even if I have never met them in person. Humans were created for relationships of all kinds. I miss them all and some more than others. Many are so supportive, understanding and just plain lovely people.

Much of my situation have not changed much in a few sence but in others aspects, OH, MY, They have really made a complete turn around.

I have a new workplace close to the end of the year and it has a lot of benefits, better pay and it is amore reliable company. But like everything in this world, nothing is perfect. I have a big share of disapppointments. I am being micromanaged to the point of huge stress on a daily basis. I am so glad that I read the Word of God daily and I am in constant communication with God because it can really take me out of what I consider my comfort zone. Then I have to come home to deal with my home life. Car troubles and finances do not help much but Hey, it is all part of life! The main focus here is that I am given a new chance every day to start all over again, even if I do the same things daily.

There is nothing more refreshing than to get up in the morning and sip a warm cup of coffee out in the porch, listening to the birds and await for the very first signs of light to show up. Have the Word of God in front of me while I thankfully pray for all the things that God has given me like:

A new life every day, people in my life whether for long or short periods of time, my children that even if they are away from me, I love them and ask for their well being and lots of blessings for them and their family, Pray for my little guy whom I miss the most and cannot wait until I am given the chance to be with him again and all I ask is for God to hold him tight in the most inner part of His heart, Pray for very special people like the one I share a big part of my smiles and tears with, For all the people God has allowed one way or another to have been in my path for different reasons, and also for the ones I will encounter during the day whether in person or over the phone through my work, and definately for those I work with so my day is a bit more easier.

This will help me go through "the strectch" and hope to reach the big opening at the end of my daily journey. It is not until I am done through it all that I can finally be able to enjoy the end reward. That peace at the end of the day knowing that "I made it". Where the light is brighter, sun warmer, nights are peaceful and I can enjoy the rest of the Lord and His Divine Presence.

It is not until then that I will be glad that I worked very hard on my patience, that I am striving without giving up, that I have gone through with dignity and with the greatest help ever,

GOD

It is not until then that I will be able to enjoy the rest of the things that God has given me. I have been given the chance to go back to school and get some "eye burning time".It will be hard because I will be doing it once a wek and that means, the work will be harder to compensate. But where the opportunity lies in is the fact atht I will be with a group of people where teh common denominator is the only person I Love and want to be with: GOD.

I hope to be able to collectively work with a group to see problems with God's eyes and find ways to help those in need, to be able to understand them better and practically, learning more and more with each and every one.

Well, It is late for me and need to be up soon again but I wish everyone the best in life and that during this Christmas Season, a new hope, love and joy be born in your hearts, regardless of how rude the world is. My thoughts are with those long suffering in Conneticut as well as in other parts of the world.

 Blessings to you all!