THE WAITING GAME
Sometimes we just wait and wait and wait and keep on waiting saying that we will never give up on waiting. But the reality of the wait is not doing anything while waiting. I am big at this. I waited for 3 years for the father of my child to bring him home. I just waited and became impatient but was able to keep on waiting.
Waiting does nothing until we do something about what we are waiting for. I realized that in a very odd way. Still today, I have played the same waiting game.
Back in January and February of this year I did something about the waiting of my Joseph. I went to seek for justice. I was not sure if it would work due to the broken justice system in the state of Florida as well as in the county I needed it the most to work. But with fear and all I sailed ahead and went straight to the dock and walked out of my waiting boat. I was found right and the other party in content to court order. Another waiting game began after that. After months of replies and attempts of my ex-husband, I was able to see my loving son Joseph. It was an amazing 29 days. Not enough to soak all of the growing up he had gone through or to learn how much he has been influenced by the people that keep him away from me.
I know that God was watching and He made it possible. God allowed those few days for people that interacted with us to see everything I mentioned was the truth and how special my child is. Of course, many said that Joseph should be with me because they saw his need for love. But that is all in the past again and the next step of the waiting game began.
I have been waiting again and have found myself in the same wasting time as I was three years ago. I waited for them to tell me they were bringing my child on Christmas. I spent Christmas Day in the most desolated way that I could have ever imagine. Pain began just as the clock stroke midnight.
Am I going to stay in the waiting position or am I going to do something about it?
Sometimes we just wait and wait and wait and keep on waiting saying that we will never give up on waiting. But the reality of the wait is not doing anything while waiting. I am big at this. I waited for 3 years for the father of my child to bring him home. I just waited and became impatient but was able to keep on waiting.
Waiting does nothing until we do something about what we are waiting for. I realized that in a very odd way. Still today, I have played the same waiting game.
Back in January and February of this year I did something about the waiting of my Joseph. I went to seek for justice. I was not sure if it would work due to the broken justice system in the state of Florida as well as in the county I needed it the most to work. But with fear and all I sailed ahead and went straight to the dock and walked out of my waiting boat. I was found right and the other party in content to court order. Another waiting game began after that. After months of replies and attempts of my ex-husband, I was able to see my loving son Joseph. It was an amazing 29 days. Not enough to soak all of the growing up he had gone through or to learn how much he has been influenced by the people that keep him away from me.
I know that God was watching and He made it possible. God allowed those few days for people that interacted with us to see everything I mentioned was the truth and how special my child is. Of course, many said that Joseph should be with me because they saw his need for love. But that is all in the past again and the next step of the waiting game began.
I have been waiting again and have found myself in the same wasting time as I was three years ago. I waited for them to tell me they were bringing my child on Christmas. I spent Christmas Day in the most desolated way that I could have ever imagine. Pain began just as the clock stroke midnight.
Am I going to stay in the waiting position or am I going to do something about it?
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