The End Only Means A New Begining

The anticipation of a new beginning

The anticipation of a new beginning is always a little stressful. It is not knowing what will happens next. No matter how much we think and feel assure of the next step in life, we always have that little hesitation inside that lets us know that we are doing something we do not know an exact outcome for. 

It is the same with each and every day. We seldom notice because we let ourselves be caught up with the busyness of life. Most of us get up in the morning knowing we have to shower, brush teeth, get dressed and head out the door to go to work and some just have to begin getting others ready to take them to school. Perhaps the most desired routine is to just hurry getting ready to stay home and work on our jobs from home or just take the day in under a tree of with others that live where we are at.

No matter what we do, we do not think intrinsically of the new beginning of every day. Even a new beginning can be every other moment throughout our day and we still fail to notice.

This year is ending for most of us and many prepare to make new year's resolutions, planning new goals to reach in the new year to come and other might just procrastinate on planning for the ahead to come time. I say this because I am one that do not plan or sketch many goals. Most of my past life I made plans and had goals but lately, I really do not have that urge. I should do more planning. But like the Psalmist said, 

" In their hearts humans plan their course, but the Lord establishes their steps"

Proverbs 16:9 NIV

This does not mean that we should not plan. On the contrary, we should always make plans that are as assertive as possible. And yes, the Lord will guide the steps to reach those plans. The importance is to have faith that God will always be there no matter what. He will keep you company and will never give up on us. At the beginning of this year I had planned to go back to college. It seemed very promising and everything was marching the right way. But there is no door that man cannot open that God had closed, neither is a door that God opens that man can close. I was not able to go back to college because of simply 30 to 45 minutes. I needed to be off work at least 30 to 45 minutes to be able to make it to class one evening a week. I had already done all he paperwork and was almost certain of what God was leading me to do was the right thing. 

Nevertheless, I told the counselor, that it was not the right time and that the door will open if God's will is for me to go back to college.  Little did I realized that God had a stone for me to remove before He will open that door for me. 

With fear but never stopping, I began to move a huge rock in my life and it paid off. I was able to face the court systems in Seminole County Florida and was able to see my child that I had not seen for the past three years. It was for 29 days and they were amazing. Very expensive financially to the point that I am still trying to catch up in behind bills but God allowed me to see my son, to enjoy him and to realize that God has always been there for me and for my son. Even right before my son coming to be with me, God arranged those minutes I needed at the beginning of the year. God provided me with a full hour. God knew I needed 30-45 minutes to make it to college class but he provided me a full hour and I was able to spend more time with my child.

Two weeks after my son left and becoming very depressed for loosing of him once again, I received a call from college and I was able to begin. Today at almost the end of the year, even without much planning, I am a senior in college for the second time in my life. This time I am trying to do something that is led by God and not of my own. I am pursuing a career to work with the less fortunate ones. A career that I was told by many people and I always replied, No, I am not doing that because I do not like it. Now, I see that it has been something I have always done and it does brings joy and peace unto my heart and soul. I am a firm believer that life is all about second and third chances. 

So, come on and let's plan for a new beginning together. Let's plan in our hearts something beautiful and have full faith that God will bring it to pass!

What are you waiting for?

Merry Christmas to all!

I have to wish you all a Happy and Merry Christmas to my followers as well as apologizing for taking so long to let you all know the deepest of my thoughts. I will do better because I do not want to stay too long in the waiting game for each season that life has for me and I do want you all to do the same. I know some of the stories of some of you and how keep at the waiting game as well. All I ask is that if any follower makes a post comment, please refrain from course of filthy language. I do agree that many might not agree with my point of view of things but nevertheless should be less. We are all mature to understand each and everyone's differences and should accept them even if not agreeing with them. 

Now that we have all entered a new season in life, let's rejoice of the greatest gift God has provided for mankind and enjoy it as well as passing it on to others.

THE WAITING GAME


Sometimes we just wait and wait and wait and keep on waiting saying that we will never give up on waiting. But the reality of the wait is not doing anything while waiting. I am big at this. I waited for 3 years for the father of my child to bring him home. I just waited and became impatient but was able to keep on waiting. 

Waiting does nothing until we do something about what we are waiting for. I realized that in a very odd way. Still today, I have played the same waiting game.

Back in January and February of this year I did something about the waiting of my Joseph. I went to seek for justice. I was not sure if it would work due to the broken justice system in the state of Florida as well as in the county I needed it the most to work.  But with fear and all I sailed ahead and went straight to the dock and walked out of my waiting boat. I was found right and the other party in content to court order. Another waiting game began after that. After months of replies and attempts of my ex-husband, I was able to see my loving son Joseph. It was an amazing 29 days. Not enough to soak all of the growing up he had gone through or to learn how much he has been influenced by the people that keep him away from me.  

I know that God was watching and He made it possible. God allowed those few days for people that interacted with us to see everything I mentioned was the truth and how special my child is. Of course, many said that Joseph should be with me because they saw his need for love. But that is all in the past again and the next step of the waiting game began. 

I have been waiting again and have found myself in the same wasting time as I was three years ago. I waited for them to tell me they were bringing my child on Christmas. I spent Christmas Day in the most desolated way that I could have ever imagine. Pain began just as the clock stroke midnight. 

Am I going to stay in the waiting position or am I going to do something about it?