Through The Wilderness Part 2

New Horizons!

Tell me about "Big Goals" for a new year. {Ha, Ha, Ha} That was the least on my mind. Had an interesting job but just like the past few years, it did not last. Most were temporary jobs and when the contract ends, so do you. But my faith kept growing and I was so happy and complete that it was. I missed the person who held that "love window" I spoke to you about, but I had to keep living. It became very damaging to my life. So,.....

The time came where the visions and my wrestling with it for three days was pivotal. Finally decided to give it a blind GO and "take a leap of faith".

{It was more like a complete humongous jump}

So asking for directions to the Spirit, packing started. Before I knew it, what had been my place for twelve years. The place of that I wanted it be a new life and had become the darkest days of my life. Where Potiphar's wife (my ex husband) lied, Potiphar became the Egyptian father to Joseph (his back then mistress) and ruled the land (me). Yeap! It had become my Egypt!

I landed on what it still seems like the land of milk and honey. My promise land!

Don't be fooled, I had my battles. Jericho walls that I had to face. I even had my "spy" helping me with information. Finding new directions and places for me to worship and be completely in the "tabernacle". Until I finally found it:

Through The Wilderness

It has been the longest wilderness I have ever walked by. I have been away from bursting my heart, mind and soul on this place. However, I am trying to get back into writing to keep myself sane through my walk in life. 

It was three years ago, March 8th, 2014 to be exact. I have gone around circles I never wanted to go through again, revived my faith and went to a new level, opened my heart to love at a new level and started to try some accomplishments that still, after three years, have not completely flourished. Hey, but who knows? It might be around the corner....

During the painful part of 2014 with how Satan works to steal and destroy every Christian, I have had so many gains. I gained a different level of spiritual maturity. This has been a huge part of me now. The opened window to love was shattered and I might have played a big part in that. As a responsible adult, I have to admit that I was part of it. After the end of 2014 and beginning of 2015, I decided to let go of it and dedicate myself to live my life more in Christ. Besides, not having a computer to spill my thoughts, I began a new journey of pen and paper.



So far I have thirteen superior notebooks full of devotions, Scriptures and prayers.I have no idea of what I will do with them. This year, my goal has been to start the same way with the devotion and Scriptures, but this time adding commentaries as a deeper understanding of such Scriptures. Kind of like a study on God's word. It has not been easy because it is a lot more writing that I have time in the mornings for. So far, I have been comfortable since 2015 by writing and I am not dreading throughout the day anymore. I have to admit that at the beginning it was painful. I was tired throughout the day and would get sleepy however, it became a habit and I can get up at 4:30 am and spend two hours at it and then get ready for work and get on with my day. I definitely noticed that I felt more prepared to face circumstances throughout each day with more peace and sound minded.